Bookanista Rec :: IF I LIE

Today’s Bookanista recommendation is a fabulous contemporary from Corrine Jackson – If I Lie

From Goodreads – A powerful debut novel about the gray space between truth and perception… Quinn’s done the unthinkable: she kissed a guy who is not Carey, her boyfriend. And she got caught. Being branded a cheater would be bad enough, but Quinn is deemed a traitor, and shunned by all of her friends. Because Carey’s not just any guy—he’s serving in Afghanistan and revered by everyone in their small, military town. Quinn could clear her name, but that would mean revealing secrets that she’s vowed to keep—secrets that aren’t hers to share. And when Carey goes MIA, Quinn must decide how far she’ll go to protect her boyfriend… and her promise.

As a general rule, I don’t read military-inspired books. Nor do I watch military-inspired TV shows or movies. As an Army wife of almost ten years, I find that fictionalized accounts of the military and its ways of life are often either inaccurate or incredibly melodramatic (I’m looking at you, Army Wives.) Furthermore, I find cheating/adultery to be a far-too-common plot element in military-inspired stories. Honestly. The vast majority of service members (and their significant others) are not fickle bedhoppers.

So, you might understand why it took me so long to pick up Corrine Jackson’s If I Lie.  I know Cory through the Bookanistas and while I think she is absolutely lovely, I have to admit that I didn’t plan on reading If I Lie. I love a good contemporary YA novel, but this one had strikes against it from the get-go. Luckily, several of my trusted book friends read If I Lie and had all kinds of wonderful things to say about it. I realized I might be missing out, so I bought myself a copy. I flew through it in two days.

If I Lie is not just a military book, nor is it just a cheating book, and it’s definitely free of melodramatics  There’s SO MUCH to Quinn’s story: weighty family issues, bullying, genuine (though rather untraditional) friendships, and incomprehensibly difficult choices. Poor Quinn has so much on her plate, more than enough to crush the average girl. Good thing she’s the oft-talked about “strong female character” personified. Quinn is smart and steadfast and determined, loyal to her own detriment. And yet, she’s sensitive enough to be relatable — the whole time I was reading I just wanted to give her a big hug.

The dynamic between Quinn, Carey, and their good friend Blake was incredibly compelling. Throughout the novel, Corrine Jackson jumps seamlessly into flashbacks that show the development of the trio’s friendship, as well as its unraveling. We find out on the first page of the story that young Marine Carey has gone MIA while overseas on a deployment, and his disappearance — as well as Quinn’s staggering personal growth — propel the plot forward. The writing in If I Lie is lovely, nuanced and authentic and without fluff. Corrine Jackson appears to write the teen voice effortlessly; I especially loved Quinn’s thoughtful observations about the people around her, and her dry wit.

So, ignore any preconceived notions you might have about military-inspired books. If I Lie is a perfect choice for fans of contemporary young adult fiction. Please do read it soon if you haven’t already!

And don’t forget to check out what my fellow Bookanistas are up to:

Christine Fonseca  marvels at MIND GAMES by Kiersten White

Shelli Johannes-Wells  explores ESSENCE by Kimberly Derting

Elana Johson  is gaga for GRAVE MERCY by Robin LaFever

Stasia Ward Kehoe discusses THE DIFFERENT GIRL by Gordon Dahlquist

Jessica Love delves into BITTERSWEET by Sarah Ockler

Nikki Katz gets lost in THE SEA OF TRANQUILITY by Katja Millay


Tell Me: Have you read If I Lie? Thoughts? Do you have a favorite military-inspired book? 

14 thoughts on “Bookanista Rec :: IF I LIE

  1. Jaime Morrow says:

    I’m really iffy on the cheating thing too in the books I read. But the reason I haven’t gotten to IF I LIE IS because I keep forgetting about it and I have a ridiculous number of books already on the TBR pile. The premise does sound really good, and your recommendations are to be trusted, so I’ll have to get my hands on a copy. 🙂

    • katyupperman says:

      I do hope you get a chance to read IF I LIE, Jaime, and I hope you enjoy it as much as I did. And for the record, there is MUCH more to the “cheating” story than I had anticipated. I don’t want to give anything away, but yeah… Don’t let that aspect deter you!

  2. Stephanie Allen says:

    I also usually avoid anything military-inspired, for the same reasons you’ve mentioned. My dad has been in the Navy for 27 years, so I grew up surrounded by other military families, and NOT A SINGLE ONE is like how they usually are portrayed.

    ANYWAY. One of my favorite things about the book was how respectfully the military was portrayed, and I loved Quinn’s relationship with all of her friends at the VA hospital. I actually read this entire book during a Seahawks game…so that’s pretty much the highest recommendation I can give.

    • katyupperman says:

      I loved the parts with the Wounded Warriors too, Steph. I haven’t read relationships like that before in YA, and it was very refreshing to see how awesomely all the veterans were portrayed. And yes! YA during the Seahawks says A LOT!

  3. Nicole mc says:

    I haven’t read much military, but I get where your issue would be. That being said, i just read WHILE HE WAS AWAY and it made me soooo sad, although if I had to guess, she did it well and true to reality. Actually I thought of you, because I don’t know if I could be a brave military wife! 😦 it definitely renewed my respect for everyone’s sacrifice, and made me want to shackle my boys to the house!!! Haha And I may have to check this one out! 🙂

    • katyupperman says:

      I haven’t read WHILE HE WAS AWAY, but perhaps I need to check it out. I think I’ve been underestimating the potential awesomeness of military-inspired books. And I totally get what you’re saying about shackling your kiddos to the house! I know we don’t want our little ones to grow up, and the military lifestyle can be scary, but it also has definite good points. The Army (minus the deployments) has been a very good way of life for us so far. 🙂

  4. Erin Funk says:

    I’ve wanted to read this one for quite some time now. I’m not big on books with story lines about cheating either, but that bit about clearing her name if she gives away secrets made me suspect there might be more to that situation than initially meets the eye. Glad to hear that’s the case and it’s worth reading!

    • katyupperman says:

      Yes, Erin, there’s definitely more to the cheating than I’d initially imagined. I think that if you read this book, you’ll find that it redeems itself on that level. In fact, I think you’ll really enjoy the entire story!

  5. Jessica Love (@_JessicaLove) says:

    I’m SO glad you ended up loving this one! I was a little nervous because of the military stuff, so I’m glad it was one you connected with! I love how all of the characters in this book were so multi-faceted. No one was just “good” or “bad” or “right” or “wrong.” There were so many shades of gray, and I love that in books.

    • katyupperman says:

      I do too, Jess! I wanted to be angry with Carey for using Quinn, especially toward the end of the story. But at the same time I totally got why he did what he did, right or wrong. Everyone in this story was so far from perfect, it made it easy to relate to them as real people. Love that!

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