Musings of a struggling rewriter…

Rewriting… easy-peasy. *rubs hands together* This is going to be FUN!

*stares blankly at computer*

*embraces procrastination*

Okay then. I might be in over my head a bit here. Perhaps I should revisit my beat sheet? Complete basic outline? A DETAILED outline?


*yanks at hair* How the hell do you replot a WHOLE STORY?

I used to know these freaking characters inside and out, but now… Who have they become? Who do they NEED to become?

*runs miles and miles and miles*


Huh. All this time I thought I was REWRITING, but I was really just tinkering… polishing a turd, if you will.

*has epiphany*

Must start from square one!

Okay… I might actually be making progress now. No, wait…

*groans* *cries* THIS IS SO MUCH HARDER THAN I THOUGHT IT WOULD BE!Β *shovels handfuls of bittersweet chocolate chips into mouth*

*finally secures a fragile hold on sanity*

Good thing my 2012 word is RESOLVE, because that’s what it’s going to take to get this thing done.


*writes some more*

Last week SUCKED. Meeting my word count goal was like pulling teeth. But this week…Β Hmm.

Wait! Is that…? Oh! I think it is! The urge to write! I actually WANT to write.

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Happy Friday the Thirteenth. πŸ™‚ How’s YOUR writing coming along?


23 thoughts on “Musings of a struggling rewriter…

  1. Alison Miller says:

    Okay, I’m breaking my self-imposed no blogging rule for two seconds because, dude. I KNOW. Rewriting is some tough shiz – I’m STILL not where I want to be. Some days I have this incredible urge to write, write, write – other days? I might get a sentence written.
    BUT – I’m also LOVING it. As much as I liked things in my old story, I LOVE the new direction I’m going with. And that keeps me going,er…most days. πŸ™‚
    Hope your Friday the 13th is filled with much writing love. Back to rewriting for me!

    • katyupperman says:

      I’m with you, Alison: “As much as I liked things in my old story, I LOVE the new direction I’m going with. And that keeps me going…” The improvements that I KNOW I’m making are enough motivation to keep me going through the really challenging bits. The improvements AND the chocolate chips. πŸ™‚

    • katyupperman says:

      Love it, Jennifer! I’ve had Taylor Swift’s song REVOLUTION stuck in my head since I read your comment, and I think you’re on to something. Let’s turn today upside down and make some real progress on these things! Thanks for the extra motivation!

  2. Rebecca B says:

    Love this post/internal monologue. I took the week off to read (revisions for-real finished, after more rounds than I can count). But this weekend, I will be opening the document for a sh!tty first draft and starting to revise . . . gulp!

    Thanks for reminding (superstitious) me that it’s Friday the 13th. That is a great reason to put off the revisions for one more night. I don’t want to start them on an unlucky day!

    • katyupperman says:

      Well, did you read Jennifer’s comment about taking hold of Friday the Thirteenth and teaching our WiPs a lesson? As much as I *want* an excuse to take today off, I think I’m going to man-up and get busy. Enjoy the last of your reading week, Rebecca. Loved your post on REVOLUTION’s cover today. That book is amazing!

  3. Erin Bowman says:

    Oh, Katy. I just started work on book two and am having very similar struggles. I keep staring at my outline, and the page, wondering: “how on earth did you ever even write that first book?!?” I’ll get there, as will you. But man, some days are tough, aren’t they? ((hugs))

    • katyupperman says:

      I have that very same thought pretty much every hour: How on Earth did I EVER manage to complete a manuscript before?! It’s like what they say about childbirth… you just sort of forget all the hard parts when they’re over, and that makes you okay with eventually having another child. (Though, I have to say, that childbirth thing isn’t true for me at all. I remember EVERYTHING. And that’s why I have one child. :))

  4. Rida says:

    Go, Katy! That’s all I can say. Just keep going!

    Revision is much tougher than first drafts for me. I don’t like cleaning up my messes, I suppose. Heh.

  5. Stephanie Allen (@stephandrea_) says:

    Thinks of having to rewrite almost-finished first draft.


    Returns to staring at hot mess that is almost-finished first draft, thinking of ways to continue making characters’ lives miserable until reaching something vaguely resembling an ending.

    Shovels chocolate into face.

    Just keep swimming =)

    • katyupperman says:

      Love that I’m not the only nut with crazy internal monologue while writing/revising. Also, I’m so glad I’m not the only one whose drug of choice is chocolate. πŸ™‚

  6. Sophia Richardson says:

    I’ve had two good writing days in a row, in terms of word count. In terms of ‘how do you feel?’, I so didn’t want to start on either day. Yesterday because of the content and the fact that I was reaching the last part of my outline, and today because I’ve officially diverted from the path I held loosely in my head. The lack of outline is scary, but I also don’t want to sit down and write one for this final act, because what if I don’t know where I’m going? It’s silly, I know, since logically it’s better to figure out NOW whether I’m going down the wrong path.

    And that was probably more information than you needed. Show your WIP who’s boss, Katy!

    • katyupperman says:

      Yes, lack of outline terrifies me, which might be why I’m struggling so much. My outline is a mess. Maybe just writing without an outline (yikes!) will help us both figure out the direction we need to take our manuscripts in… wishful thinking. πŸ™‚

  7. Kitty says:

    During the last Nanowrimo, I came across a great archived “Pep Talk” from Neil Gaiman ( and whenever I’m having one of these days like you’re having, I pull it up! Although getting all these great words of wisdom and encouragement from your fellow bloggers probably works, too. πŸ™‚ Keep at it, Katy!

  8. Elodie says:

    *Go Katy Go* Cheers you on all the way from Germany πŸ™‚
    I have not yet finished a manuscript so just for being in the rewriting process youΒ΄re already a hero πŸ™‚

    • katyupperman says:

      Well, I happen to know you wrote THE END today, so you can no long make such claims! Thanks for cheering me on, and congrats on finishing your first manuscript!

  9. Amie Kaufman says:

    I admire the “runs miles and miles and miles” part. Mine is more “eat piles and piles and piles… of chocolate”.

    Let me know if you need a pair of eyes, lady, I skip social engagements to read your words!

    • katyupperman says:

      You are too sweet! I might just take you up on that, but it won’t be for at least a few months. I’m still trying to get the first 50 pages of this baby in order! And you know, I’ve been taking into account all I learned from the last manuscript you read for me. You are brilliant, my friend!

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